Why do I do it?
I certainly don’t mean to set myself up for failure, but it’s exactly what I did when I announced 15 days of yoga. Another challenge.
Whyyyyyyyy do I get so hooked on challenges? Am I bored? Need something to shoot for? A glutton for self experimentation?
If it needs saying, here is is- 15 days of yoga was a bust. I started strong and found yogavibes to be a good online yoga option. It offers a wide array of classes so whether you are a beginning or a pro, or looking for 30 minutes or 90 minutes of practice, there is something for you. But, being that it is an online program, it was too easy for my to skip a day or push stop when I got bored halfway through. Clearly, the studio experience fits me better.
So, fine. Web-based yoga didn’t work for me. No biggie. So why did I have to turn it into a 15 day straight challenge? Why not just try it out and report back?
There are a ridiculous amount of question marks in the post already, so clearly I don’t know the answer, but I want to work on it. Sometimes I find challenges invigorating, but often times I find them weighing on me after only a few days. I strive for balance and moderations and not extremes, so why the challenges?
Maybe I’m worried you’ll get bored reading my day to day content? I don’t count calories, I don’t usually follow a set exercise plan, I don’t have any dietary restrictions. I just live. Healthfully (usually). In the ‘burbs.
The ironic part of this is as I type my failure of this one challenge, I’m still participating in Eat in Month. This is not to bash that challenge AT ALL because I’m enjoying eating in more and finding it is benefitting both our wallets and waistlines.
However, a friend is moving across the country next week (Hi A-lex!) and will be passing through at lunch time. She called me about meeting up for lunch. Do you know what was the first thing that went through my head? Oh, but I can’t eat out. I wonder if I should just bring a snack to eat. WHAT?!?! One of my best friends is driving through for an HOUR and I’m worried about a challenge??
That’s when these challenges get a little silly to me.
I think it’s leftover from my all-or-nothing days of diets in college. I like to prove to myself that I can do it without wondering if I should.
I have reached a place where living a healthy balanced life is natural to me. I should celebrate that, but instead I find myself looking for the next best thing to try. I’m always searching for a new challenge.
They say the first step is admitting you have a problem. Well, I have a challenge problem and I want to work on it. I want to keep goals (running a race, for example), but I don’t want that to flow over into challenges that feel restrictive.
Yesterday morning I went to the gym and knocked out an interval workout that left me shaking. It felt great. I can’t wait to do it again, but I’m learning I don’t need to tell myself I’ll do it Wednesday and Friday, too. What if I get sick? What if it’s beautiful and I’d rather go to the park with Hailey? I don’t want my challenges to get in the way of my life, so I’m going to try my best to not set myself up for failure anymore. I’ll leave it at that.
Can you relate?
Have you ever set yourself up for failure?