Still here! Another strange night of feeling fine, waking up at 3am, realizing I’m wide awake, eating a peanut butter sandwich at 4am, showing my belly the bright, almost full moon at 5am, then snoozing until 6am. Though I describe that as a poor night of sleep, I can’t help but giggle how much I’ll be begging for a night like that in a week. Ah, perspective.
The good news is that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I have 24 hours left to go into labor on my own, then we are headed to the hospital to give baby girl a little nudge. Ok, more like hand her an eviction notice.
Today will be a full day of the chiropractor, lots of walking, ball bouncing, pineapple, begging for the barometric pressure to drop early and possibly a jar of jalapenos for lunch. All our parents will be here by tonight, too, which is pretty exciting. It’s almost like this having a baby thing is real! I’m ready.
So, for sake of passing the time, I figured I’d jot down a few last minute thoughts and sprinkle them with pictures from pictures David took on my due date. Though now I can’t fathom not having a giant belly, I know as soon as she is here, the memory of what my pregnant belly looks and feels like disappears.
And now, some final thoughts on…
Induction: I’m realizing this is a touchy subject, but as David says, you have to draw a line somewhere. For us, this pregnancy, a week overdue is sufficient. I’m choosing to focus on the positive and am happy that I’m a much better candidate for induction this time than when I was induced with Hailey at 10 days past due. Last time my body really hadn’t started doing anything on its own which meant we had to go in the night before. This time, my body seems much more ready and the doctor and my doctor friends assure me that this means an easier induction if it comes to that.
Weight gain/Weight loss: As of yesterday I have gained 30 pounds, which is right where I was with Hailey. It still amazes me that the number doesn’t phase me. I’m a firm believer that by following mostly healthy habits of eating sensibly and staying active, the body will gain what it needs to. For some, it’s 15 pounds and for others it may be 50.
I do look forward to losing the weight and I don’t think it’s a bad thing to say out loud. I won’t be doing anything drastic, just eating good food and exercising again when I feel it’s possible. Pregnancy has made me realize just how GOOD it feels to be in good shape.
Looking forward to: WINE! More wardrobe options, exercise, eventual date nights, outtings (baseball games, boating!), energy (hopefully…), raw sushi, the return of my love of cooking, feeling more like ME again
The sleeplessness ahead: AH! Here goes nothing! I’m a lady who really enjoys her sleep, so this is a challenging facet of parenthood to me. But, we’ve done it before and like anything, you just do it. Hailey was a good sleeper so I’m crossing my fingers we get lucky again. If not, I know everything is a phase and eventually we will sleep again.
Blogging: I’ve prewritten 0 posts. I have 2 possible guest posts. Maybe that seems unprepared, but what I enjoy about blogging is the real-time factor of it all. I hope to get back to it soon after she is born because it is such a personally fulfilling outlet for me. The posts will probably be more baby-focused for a little while and possibly incoherent (all depending on that sleep thing!), but I’ll be blogging in some form and fashion.
On baby girl being posterior (sunny-side up): It is what it is! I’ve realized there is no sense in blaming myself (did I lean back on the couch too much? Was my posture off?) and she’s pretty comfy staying in that position. Hailey came out sunny side up so hopefully I can do it again!
Koda: My heart aches a little knowing she’s going to be getting even less attention then she already does. I keep telling her that I’ll get back to running as soon as I can!
Breastfeeding: I’m a bit reluctant to get started knowing the issues I had with oversupply and engorgement last time, but I keep reminding myself that after those first couple of weeks, it really does get easier. I’m nervous about soreness and beat up nipples, but if baby girl comes out a good eater, I’ll be so grateful!
Becoming a family of four: I’m ready. I don’t have a clue what it’s going to look like or feel like yet and I’m embracing and loving the fact that I don’t. You can’t ever be ready for such a big life change and so I’m just going to ride it out and see what happens. I’m excited for the burst of expanded love that I can’t even fathom yet. I’m excited to watch Hailey become a big sister and to watch David fall in love with another one of his girls. I can’t wait to hold her and look into her eyes. I’m praying for a healthy baby and a healthy delivery. The rest is just details. I’m riding high on pure excitement!
Thanks so much for being so supportive and kind through this journey and BEST OF LUCK to all you other awesome mommas to be and new moms!
Catch ya on the flip side!