I’m glad I learned this lesson at an early age. I’ve never been the beautiful girl that people treated differently because she was just so darn gorgeous. I was friends with those girls, but I was not one of them.
Sound like I’m getting down on myself? I’m not! I’m all about Operation Beautiful and loving you for you. I don’t think I’m ugly. In fact, I think I’m pretty darn cute sometimes. And I’m glad I wasn’t drop dead gorgeous because it allowed me to develop a personality- a sarcastic, silly, fun personality.
Another reason I’m glad I haven’t had to depend on my looks my whole life? Because looks fade. Beginning when you’re pregnant 😉
I can’t tell you how crazy it is to see the body that you’ve know your whole life changing in front of your eyes. To know that your boobs are only going to get bigger and your belly grow larger in the coming months.
It makes getting dressed frustrating because I knew how to dress my old body- accentuate my waist, downplay hips and thighs. But now, my waist is gone. What do I accentuate?!
I also know I’m only halfway there. And I’m only 5’1”. And that I probably won’t recognize myself in August.
As someone that is so passionate about taking care of myself and staying fit, I’m really working on focusing on health. Normally I can tell if I’m on track. Eating right, drinking lots of water and exercising leads to a a tighter figure, longer endurance and a feeling of strength. Now when I exercise I get an achy back and exhausted.
And it’s amazing how I never saw myself as thin, but looking back at pictures from only a few months ago, I’m amazed at how flat my “not flat” tummy was.
But then in the evening, I’ll lay down on the couch and watch my belly. I’ll see my stomach pop up suddenly, with one swift punch or kick from our baby that I’m growing. And I giggle. Which makes my boobs and belly jiggle. And I giggle harder.
Because looks aren’t everything.
I’m so grateful to have the opportunity to grow a life that is half me and half Hubbs. I’m so grateful that I’ve had such a healthy, and relatively easy pregnancy.
In fact, Baby D just woke up and is wiggling again. And despite the fact that I’m living in yoga pants because none of my clothes fit, I’ll be smiling all day and dreaming of what this little life inside of me will grow up to be.
…because looks aren’t everything.