A year ago today I was scheduled for an induction. Being a week overdue, my doctor strongly suggested it and I was put on the schedule to come in early morning on the 15th. I still had high hopes of going into labor on my own, especially with a big storm and a barometric pressure drop, but no real contractions came, just a call from the hospital at 6:00 am to let me know they were full. Apparently the barometric pressure had worked for everyone but me and I was getting bumped.
That day was hard for me. I struggled with emotions. The disappointment, the exhaustion, the excitement and fear battled within me. However, the morning of the 16th, everything felt right and David and I were overjoyed when at 2:04 pm our baby girl came barreling into the world.
The joy I have in my heart is indescribable. Of course being the sentimental person that I am, I am also experiencing the bittersweet feeling of time passing too quickly. I often wondered about this day- how would I feel/handle our last baby reaching this milestone. I pictured me crying over old pictures and holding the girls tightly to relieve my nostalgia-induced meltdown, but now that I am here, it’s true, I am overwhelmed by emotion, but just not the ones I foresaw.
I am grateful. Grateful that I have two healthy children. It’s not a blessing I take lightly and holding onto this is what makes all the other stuff seem small.
I am happy. Kaitlyn has brought so much laughter to our family already. She is small and feisty, full of spunk and adventure. She’s cuddly and loving but keeps on our toes. She is going to be a force to be reckoned with. Watching she and her sister interact and bond brings me more happiness than I ever would have thought.
I am excited. This emotion has surprised me the most. I thought I’d spend today looking back, but instead I am looking forward. A new chapter is opening up for our family, as we are over what I loving refer to as ‘the baby hump.’ And though I will feel a small ache inside when I see so many of my beautiful friends welcome their new babies into the world, I am ready. I’m ready to welcome more adventures, more learning, and deeper bonding.
I’ve learned over the past few years that you can never really hold onto a moment. No matter how many pictures you snap or videos you take, you’ll never be able to relive that exact moment and feeling again. So it’s best to follow the old adage and just live in it, soak it up and keep rolling. Instead of dwelling on the fact that life moves on, I want to embrace it and remember how fortunate I am to have a first row seat to watching these two incredible girls grow.
Happy Friday everyone! I hope you have some cake coming your way this weekend too 😉