Sometimes I read blogs that announce thing I don’t see necessary. Example: Announcement: I’m going to post more often! Ok, why not just post more often? For that reason I feel conflicted about whether or not to write this, but here I am, writing about it, so I guess I chose to do so.
I had a mini melt down on Saturday. I say mini because all it took to cure it was my awesome husband taking Hailey and finishing the Christmas decorations while insisting I go get a pedicure (if he insists…I must obey! ;)), but a meltdown no less.
See, sometimes I have this issue that I feel I need to prove myself. Prove myself to who? I have no clue. I think it has something to do with how fortunate I feel (I’m truly blessed with healthy family, friends, a comfortable home, and an overall good life), and I want to prove to the world that I’m earning my keep. So I commit myself. I commit myself to taking care of a baby full time, running a business, blogging everyday, writing for other publications, staying fit, fixing healthy meals, keeping a clean house, making sure the laundry is done, decorating for holidays, taking care of all the day-to-day things for our family, sending timely thank you notes, making sure Koda gets enough exercise… until BAM! I feel crushed underneath this load of perfectionism I have placed on myself.
It’s silly. It’s unnecessary. Yet it’s very real to me.
I can tell when it’s getting to be too much when I become OCD. Like on Saturday I decided to organize the attic (because that’s high on the priority list, right?!)
then organize the Christmas cards (I freaked out when Michaels was out of clothes pins… seriously?)
then, with the help of Hubbs, I decided what I really needed to organize was my thoughts and my schedule. After a long foot rub (my goodness, I love pedicures) and a nice talk with Hubbs, I decided on a plan. I need to cut back. So I made a list of my priorities, made some tough decisions and made up my mind that I wasn’t go to be so hard on myself anymore.
This sounds like the point where I’d say I’m not blogging anymore, but that’s not what I plan to do at all. Instead, I want to remember why I started blogging. I wanted to connect with people and show how living a healthy life is possible under any circumstances and doesn’t have to be extreme. I wanted to show a realistic approach via my own life.
But somewhere along the way I got a little off track.
I started making it “mandatory” (in my mind) to have recipes to share each week. I love cooking, but I’m no recipe developer. Bless those that are because I sure love making their stuff! I’ll make up my own from time to time, and I’ll still share it when I do, but to require myself to make one up weekly is silly. It’s not what I like to do.
I blogged about my whole pregnancy, but then got nervous that people would be turned off by too much baby talk, so I decided to limit it. I have other interests besides Hailey and will continue to blog about them, but guess what… I also have a frickin’ child! And it has completely changed my life (for the wonderful, I might add), so yes, babies will probably come up in my blog. Especially how I am working on keeping fitness goals and healthy eating a part of my world now that I’m a mom.
Basically I got caught up the comparison game and assuming I knew what you would or wouldn’t want to read about. And I fell into the old adage that the only way to please no one is to try and please everyone.
So, I’m going back to blogging from my heart full time. What does that entail? I like sharing what I eat and my exercising triumphs and struggles, so those will remain. Recipes, occasionally, when they’re worth it. There will be talk about navigating motherhood and probably a decent number of adorable baby pictures.
I’ll write tidbits about my life and tips I figure out that I think others will find useful. If some health news strikes me as interesting, I’ll probably tackle that as well.
I’ll still blog everyday because I truly enjoy it. I’ll hope you read what I have to say and talk back with me. The interaction with you all is my favorite part of this whole thing, anyway. And the wonderful thing about the blog world? If my blog doesn’t appeal to you, there are about a billion other great ones out there that might.
Thanks for reading and there you have it. My ‘no-need-to-announce-it’ announcement.
I hope you’ll continue to stick around 🙂