A Rambling Spring Break Friday
Hello, good morning, happy Friday!
It’s been a weird week around here. It’s spring break so we haven’t had any of our regularly scheduled activities. In a way, that’s been really nice. We had a family movie night, hung out with friends from our old town that stopped by for a bit, the girls and I went shopping (H got this dress and this shirt and both are so cute on her), and we hit a bucket of balls together at a driving range for the first time. Our form left a lot to be desired but we had fun!
On the other hand, I’m not sure if it was our lack of enforced structure, the pollen, or my hormones, but I’ve had some pretty consistent brain fog all week long. On the outside I think (hope) that I look like I’m functioning as normal but I feel like I’ve mentally been trudging through mud.
I also had one of those moments of really missing my dad. It’s something I realize I don’t really ever talk about- the seemingly unprovoked occasion of suddenly wishing deeply that I could just talk to him for five minutes while tears well up in my eyes.
I shared that, along with the ball in a box perspective of grief, on Instagram and then proceeded to ugly cry my way through the responses that were a mix of comradery in this universal human experience of grief and loving responses remembering things I shared about my dad and how he used to always leave messages on all my blog posts.
Between the brain fog and the emotions, I, of course, blame hormones. But the fun thing about 42 is that do I blame where I’m at in my cycle (fitting) or do I blame perimenopause? I just received the copy of The New Menopause that I hope will help me figure it out. Can I tell you how humbling it is to buy a book with the word menopause in it? Aren’t I still 20-something years old?
I had a few moments of productivity. I put together my Tween Girl Easter Picks and Teen Girl Easter Picks lists. I really enjoy doing this so much because I basically knock out that task for my own Easter Bunny while hopefully creating something helpful. I didn’t get around to making graphics though (that takes longer than one might think), but wanted to go ahead and share them because Easter is only a couple weeks away (crazy).
I also washed sheets, completed chicken chores, and ordered photos for my frames, which took over an hour because I ended up scrolling through pictures with H of her toddler days. She was so cute. Sniff.
Hormones, is that you? Time to start reading my book…
I’m looking forward to this weekend, which should hold some fun time with friends, plenty of sunshine, and of course some basketball watching!
We are so into March Madness. Is that something you enjoy? We all filled out brackets (mine isn’t doing so well at the moment) and then had both ChatGPT and Grok fill one out too, just for fun. David has been telling me he is finding Grok to be superior in his use, so we decided to put them to the real test… basketball predictions!
Thanks for stopping by today and I hope you have a really wonderful weekend. I’ll be back next week with something more substantial to share than a rambling monologue. See you then! 🙂
Anne says
Hello, I have missed a lot of your posts since your trip to Scotland because of work, but do catch up via my reader on Wordpress which doesn’t allow me to leave comments.
I’m sorry to hear that there have been sad days. I remember when your dad used to leave comments on your blog posts and read some of his own posts. Sending you a big hug from across the pond.
My 40s brought about intense anxiety and I’m turning 50 this year. The anxiety may have subsided slightly. It has only dawned on me that it could have been due to perimenopause. I have not felt like myself for almost a decade. So please arm yourself with all the books and information so that you are fully aware of the whys and what’s.
Have a good weekend, friend. Take care and happy spring break.
Brittany Dixon says
How are you feeling now? More like yourself? I’m so glad more women are talking about perimenopause because until a couple years ago, I had never heard of it. I hope you have something special planned out to celebrate your birthday this year!! <3
Anne says
I’m on a self discovery mission, not quite the person I was in my 30s and trying to let go of what doesn’t serve me any more.
I ha e spent the last few birthdays in Paris and might do a repeat stay this year!
Brittany Dixon says
Cheering you on in your self discovery mission! Growing into new seasons can be challenging. But I have a feeling Paris might help 😉 Sounds like a fabulous way to kick off a fresh decade!